the grotesque is always saying something that goes against the "norm". Something that "shouldn't exist. My grotesque swatch is reminiscent of every person that has told me I'm a bitch or a "monster" to men if I refuse to be polite and "feminine". the monster is the men inside my head, and simultaneously the monster that comes to attack them. It is not "feminine". it attacks me first, and tells me i'm not enough, and then it attacks anyone who tries to agree with it. cannibalism of the mind.